I’m such a bad guy;
I keep promising to update this thing but I never follow through. A lot has happened in my life since I created this blog about a year and a half ago. Some of those were good things, many were bad things, but it made me into who I am today and I’d like to think that the current version of Rusiru is the best one yet.
A little over a year ago, I went through without a doubt the most difficult time in my life, so far. Long story short, I went through a really messy breakup. Like, really messy. Those dreadful feelings were so unbeknownst to me and I was lost. I was lost at 15 years old and quite frankly, it was pitiful. I was in a terrible state and I didn’t know what to do with myself. That time was a catalyst for the clinical depression I was thrust into that still lingers today.
My immigrant parents were unequipped to combat this problem that was oh so American (not breakups- I’m sure those transcend cultural lines- but the nature of this breakup combined with the idea of feeling love at such a young age when they themselves had never felt it in their many years). My friends were torn between belligerent sides and didn’t want to have their loyalty come into question. I had no one to help me. Until my wonderful followers on tumblr noticed my subliminal (and not so subliminal) posts that reflected my feelings and rushed to my aid. I don’t know who all of them were, or if they even follow me today, but I am forever in debt to the group of strangers-turned-friends who gave me advice and moral support during a time in my life where I didn’t think anything would ever get better. I appreciate their assistance even more today now that I’m 100% over what happened and I see that their advice really was true.
I’m a different guy today than I was a year ago. Heck, I’m a different guy today than I was yesterday, but I like to think that every day I’m a better version of myself than I was the previous one. If you were one of the people who helped me out way back when, I’d like to sincerely thank you for all that you did for me just by being there. The impact your support had on me goes beyond words and is simply immeasurable. Thank you. You made me realize how wonderful a site like tumblr really is. Every child, or rather, every person deserves to have such a supportive and loving group of individuals to be there for them when they need it most.